forgiveness

back at this writing thing. it's been unusually hard to actually find a no-fuss blogging platform. wordpress has taken a nosedive in terms of its product offerings, to the point that it is unappealing for me to even want to stay on the platform.

so here i am, back on blogspot. it's almost nostalgic to be back here as i am reminded of mini-me. i think i created my first blog when i was 13, and now almost two decades later i am back on this platform because nothing else seems to have the same simplicity. all i want to do is to write, not dabble with having a picturesque layout.

it's taken me a long time for me to get back to this place - writing, i mean. for the past few years i have had lots of trouble holding thoughts down and seeing them through. i felt mute, unsure of my inner voice. i have felt less certain of myself, and have felt more urges to just disappear into the background.

i think this is how traumatic events gnaw at you - insidiously chipping away at your soul before you realize that you were a husk of your former self. the antidote to this seems to be a combination of therapy, meditation, and self-help books. i seem to have regained some of my senses. my hope is that i will see more of my self in the months to come.